Im back!!!!!

Its been a while since my last post. So much has been happening and to be honest I have not given my blog a thought until Karen mentioned it the other day so this one is for you Karen! LOL

It looks like summer has hit us very early this year. I just pray it doesn't mean it will be as hot as last year. Today it is 34 degrees for like the 3rd day in a row and I hate it. At least so far the nights have been cooler so the kids can sleep. Karen when you get here make sure your house has air con. Its is hell without it and if your not used to it the boys will be beside themselves.

We have just moved into a new house (thanks to the old owner selling up on us :-( )
and this house has no air con. Luckily we do have our own but we have been waiting for permission from the owner to install it in one of the windows. He originally said no but after a very kind email almost pleading and promising it will be done properly with no damage to the house he has agreed. Now we are just waiting for my friends hubby to get the time to do it.
We have been down the beach the last few nights just trying to cool off.

As it gets hotter i cant help worrying that we will have another black Saturday.. It scares the crap out of me. I find myself looking off into the distance praying for no signs of smoke. This is just the start of summer, what will I be like when it really heats up??

I have decided to have a farewell party on December the 31st. NOT a new years party because as far as I am concerned there is nothing to celebrate this year except the end of it so a farewell 2009 party it is.
One of my lovely VP ladies wrote a little verse for me that is going to be the invites... What do you think?

I'd love for you to join us
to give 2009 a farewell.
A year filled with turmoil
and at times, our personal hell.
So come help us celebrate
and bring in the new year.
What better way to welcome 2010
with friends, love and cheer
With the trusty BBQ ablaze,
you’re sure to be well fed
And if you have too much to drink
I’m sure we can find you a bed
So put on your party frocks
and lets celebrate in style
Don't forget your dancing shoes,
your favourite drink and your smile.
The one think I ask
That you try to remember
Is to RSVP to me on 04___________
By the ____ of December.


I love it! and Karen.... More of a reason for you to get here this year! LOL
Leave me a comment to tell me what you think!

Take care all
Love Reneeoxox

Have you ever got to that stage where you cant see the point in fighting anymore?
I am there.
I am sitting here now facing this stupid screen hoping to hell my daughter doesnt walk in and see the blubbering mess her mother is.
I want to give up on this year. I can honestly say its the worst year I have ever had. I try and try but everything is going wrong.
I dont know what to do anymore.
I feel like I am going to explode. I want to scream and yell and cry but I dont want to let anyone see me do it because I want to be the strong one

miss Emily!!!

I am missing my Emily!!!!

The first night she was away was odd not tucking her in, The second was weird and now the third.... I want her home!!

Am I a clingy mum much??? LOL!!

I honestly didnt think I would have an issue. Yeah sure its great without her and Lachie fighting 24/7 but i just miss her! :-( 2 more sleeps and counting!!!

She is more than likely having the time of her life and not even given me a second thought, which would be great! There is that little part of me still that is thinking maybe she is still upset like when she said goodbye but if that was the case surely they would have rang by now

I am still here!

I know I know its been a while since I have been here but I have had so much on in the last few weeks/months its unbelievable!
From Sick kids, to becoming a Tupperware demonstrator and even another funeral. I have officially banned anymore death and heartache in my family. I honestly think there are at least 2 members of my family that would not be able to handle anymore. Does anyone know how to press fast forward and finish this year and start again??

Me... Well I am good. I believe I am stronger now than I was a few months ago, I suppose that has to be a good thing. I have just started selling Tupperware and I do love it. I have quite a few issues but I will get around them. The job itself I enjoy. Its amazing how much more confidence I have now that I didn't before. I used to struggle talking to few people I didn't know now I am talking to a whole room and not passing out through panic! LOL!

Craig and the kids are great, Miss B has been a bit of a worry though last week she went 5 days without eating a thing and we has xrays and scans that all came back clear and still now don't know what the problem was. She does get eczema on her face so I wouldn't be surprised if maybe she had some in her mouth and that is why.
Emily is off to camp on Monday. 5 whole days... I will miss her so much. She is in grade 6 this year but it is her first school camp. She has refused to go every other year. To say she is a bit nervous is a major understatement! Its Friday night and right now she is in her room packing.
Lachie has also been sick this week with Laryngitis. Unfortunately he never lost his voice though! HA HA I had him home most of the week and My God!!! Can that kid talk..... He is feeling heaps better now.

well I'm off now, miss B is asleep so i think a nice hot soak in the bath is on the cards...

Take care all
Reneeoxox

Tupperwear!

Hi All!
Well everything seems to be settling down now and life is going ahead as normal.
I am so glad its all over now, How is this for ironic! just over 2 months ago the heat was so hot the bushfires were uncontrollable and now a few days ago it bloody snowed there!! Only in Vic!!

As I said briefly in past posts I have joined Tupperware. I have my first party tomorrow and I am so so scared! I have never been good at public speaking or even talking to a large group.
at the same time I am also very excited! Mixed emotions everywhere. One minute its "I cant wait!" the next its "What the hell have I got myself into?"
The first party is my mums so that should be OK, I will know pretty much everyone but then is that a good thing? If I didn't know them and stuffed up they will never see me again, If I stuff up now I have to see them for the rest of my life! LOL
After I get over tomorrows party I have one the following day as well at my old neighbours house. That's not to bad cos I only know her and wont know her guests.
I have been concentrating on the whole product knowledge so I think I now know a fair bit about all the products in my kit so I hope that helps. I have even put tiny post it notes on the bottom to give me pointers if I forget.
Well I have the house to myself at the moment so i am going now to do a practise demonstration and see how I go with no people in the room and If I am confidant enough I will do one in front of Craig tonight.

Take care all and wish me luck for tomorrow!
*~*~Fingers crossed for me!*~*~*~

OK take 2!

last night i went into huge detail on here about the funeral and the property etc then when I pressed publish my computer must have thought I meant demolish.. It has gone!

So I will rewrite but in brief.

Wednesday we had the funeral for the family we lost on Black Saturday.
It has taken so long because we have been waiting on DNA to confirm it was them as they were not able to be viewed and because of the massive backlog they had from that day it took just over 2 months. A long 2 months at that.
the funeral was very long but I suppose with 4 people that was to be expected but it was also a great tribute to them. We all laughed and cried. We remembered the good and the bad and I realised how lucky I was to have them in my life.
grandma... You were a rock. A typical Aussie to whom family was everything. Even though I am not yours by blood that never mattered to you, you were there for me where my own grandparents were not. Uncle Donny.... The thing I remember most as a young child was coming up and seeing you sitting is your 'spot' outside the woodshed, nothing would faze you much, You were best described on Wednesday as the Aussie version of Jed Clampet.. So true!!
Uncle Bucky.... I will always remember your ' No little people rule' so funny, you were the one waiting and looking forward to our visits the most and who had more fun? The 'little people ' or you??? auntie Cheri..... I can never remember you not there with your smile that could warm anyone even the hardest person. You had a heart of gold.

After the service my cousins , brothers and I decided to go to the property for a goodbye our style, then to the local pub they loved so. I was amazed at the extent of the damage and also at the green already pushing itself through. I will post a couple of pics of the house, or whats left of it and the property. I am very glad I went up there and now we have said a proper good bye we can have some closure.
thank you everyone, and to all you wonderful VP ladies, You have made such a tragedy almost bearable. Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

Love Renee

Bugga!

Ok Now Im annoyed!
I just spent ages writting a new blog and adding pics press enter and its gone!
Stupid technology....

Ah well No time now to rewrite so you will have to wait till tomorrow!

OHHHH!!!!!!!

So how are you????