This is me... The Start!

Well How do you start a new Blog??

A bit about me, My name is Renee, I am 32 years old, I am Happily married and have 3 amazing children. My life so far has been good and bad,I have made mistakes and I have made great choices.
When I look back I suppose I would say my biggest mistake was growing up way to fast. At 18 I was engaged,had brought my first house. This should have been the best time in my life but it wasnt. I am not going to say I regret it because I dont. I came out of that marraige with 2 amazing kids and I would not change that for the world. I also will never say i didnt love him because I did but it wasnt the type of love I had for my now darling husband Craig. It was a love that i grew into if that makes sence? I thought this was all life was and i think I was more in love with the idea of the marraige, the family , the house and the car etc etc etc. Just wish I knew then what I know now.......
I left this marraige when our 2nd child was 4 months old and was a single mother of two for about 2 years. This was my teenage years in a way, even though i was 22 I had never partied never explored my own likes and dislikes and in that 2 years i learnt a lot! I learnt that I was or could be strong,that I didnt need anyone else but my kids and I could make it on my own. I also learnt that I could attract other people. Men and Women. This was a huge thing as I had come to the idea that i was not good enough for anyone. Needles to say I lets call it "lived and loved" in those years.
Now enters Craig! He was a good friend for years and I always had a 'thing' for him. but being so down on myself never let this be known to anyone. I would even go to my friends whom he was living with(as friends only) and sit in the certain seat to watch him walk down the hall in his boxers to the shower.
Anyways Craig came over 1 night to watch DVDs and well never left and we have been happily married now for almost 4 years. I can honestly say i am married to my best friend. I love him entirly!
we have since had a baby girl,Miss B. Now our family is complete. Craig Emily(11) Lachlan (8) Bianca(2) and myself. Life is great.

Recently I have been at a bit of a loss as to what and who I am? I know Im a mother and a wife but there has to be more...
About 4 weeks ago I went with my mum and brother to a Spiritual Church and was amazed! I felt this is where i belong and its like things just fell into place. I have Meditated for the first time and even last tuesday went to a Meditation and Healing workshop and loved it.
I know a lot of people think spirituality,numerology,tarot,healing etc is garbage but I think its fasinating and can really understand a great deal of what they say.
Since i first started going to this church I have felt like a different person. Calmer and less stressed and I feel I can take on whatever life throws at me. I know this is a quick change but its hard to explain how I am feeling. I will continue to go and even learn more about Healling etc

I will try my best to keep this blog up if your interested in my journey.
Please read, and do comment even just leave your name so I know whos been here. If anyone.

Well Thats basically me, I will try and add more tomorrow and go into more detail about the church and workshops etc