A sad one....

Its just so unfair!!!

Nice start to a blog hey?

Well this is my Woe is me post! LOL!

We have the funerals tomorrow and just thinking about it is making me feel ill. Now to top it off Miss B is sick and unless she improves in a hurry Craig wont be able to come with me :-( I really think I need him there just to stand at my side.I thought I was over the worst but as it gets closer its like losing them all over again.
I had a chat to mum the other day, She wanted to warn me that there will only be 2 coffins not 4. I had no idea at first but it was explained,Well sort of.
Cheri-Lees family have already had her Cremated and she will be in the same one as Uncle Bucky and Grandma and Uncle Donny will be in the other but I am unsure why? I am assuming its because we have been told there is not a great deal left so my uncle has decided to put them together.?????Several other reasons have popped into my head but I don't want to think of them so That's what I am going to believe.

I have just been talking to my brothers and they are now comming in my car so if Craig cant come at least I wont be alone for the long drive.

I thought I had cried all I could but yesterday and even more today it seems that is not the case. I don't want to do this tomorrow, I don't know if I can continue being strong, I want to be there for my cousins etc but I would hate myself if I lost it and made it worse for them.

So there is my Woe is me! Feels better to get it out, well at least a little of in anyways.

Reneeoxox